Yey! Another update " height="15" title=" (Smile)" /> good thing I’ve been able to practice drawing again. I started to draw WITCH characters again as a warm-up but one problem is that I don't have a scanner yet " height="15" title=" (Sad)" /> too bad, I wanted to practice my coloring in Photoshop. Right now, I am saving for a scanner, DSLR and a Nintendo DS. Aww, yes, I still don’t have a DS I wanted to try those kanji games to practice my kanji reading and writing. As for the DSLR, I am planning to buy D40 since it’s the cheapest But seriously, I want to learn how to shoot using a DSLR and hopefully learn some techniques. 
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I still don't have an internet connection at home...BOO! So basically, I just go to my cousins’ place to check my mails and stuff. Oh, how I missed unlimited and fast internet connection while I was still in Japan. ~<>~ I want to play more application games in Facebook . LOL
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Recently, I am addicted in Dissidia. All the alternate looks are really cool! Haha, I can’t concentrate if I play Sephiroth because of his topless look LOL fangirl XD But I also like Cloud’s and Squall’s look. Hay, too bad I still can’t perfect Odyssey part yet. I’m stuck at 98%, 96% and 95% level completion of my main characters . Huwaaah, so frustrating  Oh well, try and try!
Well, that’s for today I guess. I will soon update mu gallery and journals in deviantart ^__^

Currently watching: Konkatsu

It’s so sad that I can’t find any jobs here yet. I still don’t have any replies from the interviews that I went so I guess, it’s a no.

 

Being always the one left at home, I was able to “think” and “reflect” on the things I want to do with my life from now on. While surfing on the net for possible options I may consider while staying here in Japan, I am left with this question: “What am I capable of?” Seeing all the requirements for the universities here just let my hopes down. Why? Most of the classes are taught in Japanese even for art schools. There are some English classes like in Sophia University or Ritsumeikan University but their tuition are quite expensive. I know there are some scholarships available but I think I may not be qualified for any of those. Looking at my transcript with a 0.0, would they still consider me? I really hate it. ~.~ Just recently, I haven’t even opened my Kanji book or my other Nihonggo books to self-study because I think I don’t have the motivation. It is really hard to study ALONE. When I encounter questions along the way, no one is there to explain it to me. Actually I’m not the smart-type just a hard-working type I guess. But if there is no motivation, how can I continue? With this, I think I will go back to the Philippines and pursue my masteral studies either in Ateneo or UP or wherever I’ll be accepted. I just hope I’ll be accepted. Actually, I’m still not sure what program I’ll be majoring. I’m torn between what I like (to draw/graphic design) and what I hope to be (Masteral in Japanese studies).

 

Lately, I’ve enjoyed drawing and compared to my past illustrations I think I’m quite improving. I want to have a masteral/certificate in the Arts. But I’m afraid that I will not be accepted because of my style. I’m willing to learn from scratch. I’m not really born as an artist. Over the years I just practiced drawing, it’s just my hobby. But just a few weeks ago, I saw in a thread in a forum (gainjin pot) that someone needs an illustrator for a story. I messaged the author and she liked my drawings. She said that I should be considering being an artist someday….Well, really hope so ~.~ I still haven’t received her story yet but I hope to receive it soon so I can start on this project.

 

Ok, for the cons for my masteral in Japanese studies, I still don’t have a clear research proposal. I have lots of ideas but I can’t organize it. I’m quite nervous to because I heard that being in the graduate school, one must have an understanding of the lessons immediately. I think I can’t do that. I know I should but I guess I’m becoming stupid each day.

 

 バカ! バカ! みちこ バカ!

 

As Ryoma would say: まだ まだ だね。。。

Currently watching: gokusen

Ok, after grad...now what?

-> I'll have my civil service examination on July 22 so that I'll be able to apply for the Department of Foreign Affairs...

->IBM pre-employment exam tomorrow (i hope i'll pass or at least have a decent score)

-> BOMA Open house on July 10 (I tried to apply as a graphic artist...umm, wish me luck)

-> I applied in PAL and Northwest but still no replies yet...

-> I plan to take my masters in Ateneo if ever or take up any course in computer (last resort)

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 Which Girlfriend are you?
  Michiko, you're a Steady Supporter

Stand by your man — that's just something you naturally do. Once you've committed to a relationship, you are a constant companion who enjoys the comfort and stability that comes from being a couple. Not quick to judge, accuse, or think the worst, you have a lot of trust (in him and in yourself), and you rarely worry about where he is or who he's with.

For you, mutual respect is of utmost importance. You are comfortable and confident in your own skin, making you a great pillar of strength in all your relationships. Whether he's striving to climb a mountain or land a promotion, you have his back. Best part is, you know he's got yours too.

 

Currently listening to: 1000 years by Kang Eun Soon
Currently reading: By the River Piedra I sat down and Wept by Paulo Coelho

For a certain time you have to be lost in order to search for places you can't find, else it wouldn't be called lost if we knew how to find it.
- Capt. Barbossa

There is no lost cause until there's a fool fighting for it.
-Will Turner

The world used to be a bigger place...It remains the same , there's just less in it...-Capt. Barbossa, Capt. Jack Sparrow

Keep a weather eye on the horizon - Will Turner

Love...What a dreadful bond, it only takes moments to server it.
-Davey Jones

Here are just some quotes my friend gave me hehe

Wow, it’s been ages since I’ve updated by journal…Okay, my summer class officially ended last May 19 hehe…Finally, I’m free again XD Although I’m not that satisfied with one of my last subjects. It’s just so depressing that the “newsletter” I’ve been working on for several days is not worth it…My other friend who just made some articles even had a higher mark than me. It’s just so sad that she has more time to work on her individual paper while I’m stuck finishing the group project T.T gosh…Now, I learned my lesson that there are times when one has to prioritize oneself than the rest of the group. Too much of “self-sacrifice” is bad.
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Next, I just want to write about my birthday experience last May 10. Yeah, most of the expected people who were suppose to greet me weren’t really the ones who greeted me…well, most of them remembered at the very last minute like it’s 11 pm at least they remembered. But, there’s this friend of mine who really stayed up late on May 9 just to greet me at exactly 12:00 midnight. *blush* so, sweet…
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05/26/07 I never thought that someone would like me or would have a crush on me. I never expected that he would tell it in front of everybody. I was speechless…
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Yesterday was officially the first time I got to travel to the mall alone xD and umm, go out with a guy friend. Yeah, first time T.T…with Trev (Azidik) what can I say we were quite shy at first but we managed to get along quite well. It’s our first time to meet ^^ I think he is really a good guy and quite a gentleman. We went to play in the arcade then Audition in a computer shop. It feels kind of awkward at first knowing that the person you’re playing with for a long time is right beside you but then after playing with him I felt comfortable. We ate lunch at a Japanese restaurant and watched Pirates of the Caribbean. It was a fun day indeed.